This weekend didn’t progress or end as I would’ve hoped or anticipated, but I still feel very fortunate to have been able to experience it, good and I suppose even the not-so-good. It becomes increasingly important to me to constantly remind myself that, despite complication and drama and challenges, I am always so very blessed.
I know it’s not manly or very admirable or understandable when a guy cries, but if you’ve ever found yourself rushing through a store (or any public place, really) b/c you’re about to just lose it emotionally; or, if you’ve ever had something weigh on your mind so very heavily that you are physically incapable of sleeping, and just lie there watching the night and the hands of the clock just pass you by – those would be among the experiences I’ve had within the last 24 hours. I won’t go into detail, but going through that kind of thing far removes you from a spirit of thankfulness – instead, you feel empty, discouraged, misunderstood, and very much alone. As I sit here creating this blog entry though, I feel like I have to put myself and my emotions in check, and consider all of the incredible blessings I have been, and will be, provided in the entirety of my life; all of the tough circumstances and situations I’ve been through and come out of unscathed, stronger, wiser, more focused. I honestly don’t have a right to be so discouraged, especially having a hope and a faith that has kept me going all these many days; and of course having great people in my life to keep me grounded and loved and acknowledged. Not everything in my life is exactly as I’d want it to be – some of which I’ve strained and continue to strain very hard to be – but that’s life. Friction is a main ingredient in the recipe for walking; without that opposition it’s literally not possible. So, in the same thinking, friction in life is what yields forward progress – and that’s something I need to remind myself of daily – no, hourly.
So, if you’re reading, and you’re having a tough go of things, just remember your blessings and how far you’ve come and what you’ve survived and how you’ve flourished and are flourishing through that season, and be encouraged. As they say, this too shall pass – it always does. Have faith and keep your head up.